COUNTDOWN: 9 days
In 4 years of living away from home, I've managed to accumulate lots of...stuff. Free t-shirts. Random giveaways that have random company logos on them. Cups. Sweatshirts that aren't mine. Sweats that aren't mine. Unclaimed socks. Unread books. But today, I'm packing it all up into boxes and taking them back to my parents' house. It's hard to decide what to keep and what to throw away. But at some point, you have to let things go.
I'm starting to freak out a little bit. I'm leaving in 9 days and I still need to move out of my apartment and pack my bags and say my goodbyes. It's a strange thing to be moving...let alone to another country. For the past 4 years, I've lived next door or shared an apartment or around the corner from friends. And now, I'm moving to a village where I don't know anyone. It's going to be an adjustment to say the least.
While I'm packing my college life up in boxes, it's crazy to look back and see how much things have changed in 4 years. How different of a person I am now that I'm saying goodbye to South Central than when I first came here 4 years ago. Maybe that's a good thing. There are days when I doubt that God knows what He's doing and I ask Him if He's sure that Shibecha is where I'm supposed to be going. But I can look back at these past 4 years and know that God had everything planned perfectly. That everything happened in His perfect timing, not mine. So while I hate to only have 9 days left with my friends and family in LA, I know that leaving in 9 days is part of His perfect timing, even if I wish I didn't have to say goodbye so soon. And I know that there will be days when I'm going to doubt God's plan for me being in Shibecha or me being away from my friends and family, but I have to remember that God is God and I am not.
The God that got me through freshman year and finally broke me sophomore year is the same God going with me to Shibecha. The God that got me through my sophomore year and ridiculous junior year is the same God going with me to Shibecha. The God that got me through senior year is the same God going with me to Shibecha. My God promised He'd never leave me nor forsake. My God promised He would go before me. My God promised to hold me by His right hand and to keep me. My God doesn't go back on His promises...ever. I can rest assured of His promises because His promises never fail.
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