I'm back in the village--covered in snow and well below freezing. I drove down to church, grabbed McDonald's, watched the Broncos get destroyed, and then hit up the recycle shop and hardware store before coming back to the village for dinner at my boss's house. Seems like things are back to normal. And my toilet is frozen.
LA was fantastic. Weather was warm. Family & friends were encouraging. Food was delicious. It was good to be home. While there wasn't much time for relaxing, I found rest in fellowship. To laugh with old family friends and enjoy big casual dinners like we used to before all of us kids grew up and moved out. To stay up late into the night having pillow talk with my best friends. To share so many meals with so many different friends and catch up on life. To spend time with my family around the dinner table. To sit outside with a cup of Starbucks and listen to the ocean. To drink Starbucks and share life with new & old friends. To throw popcorn and laugh and be silly with my kids. To worship Jesus in the living room of the sorority house. I've missed fellowship...and having people in the flesh (not trapped in my computer screen).
It was a good 4 weeks back in the States, but it's nice to be back in the village. The quieter life. The slower life. Things I've come to appreciate after 18 months.
I have about 3 weeks or so to sign my papers. They're shoved in a drawer in my desk at the office. I've done my best to ignore them since I got them back in October. But the deadline is approaching. I am praying that Jesus comes back before I have to make a decision. While it may be selfish, I'm stuck. I'm stuck and I have nothing to do but pray and seek God. So again, like last year, I'll be on my knees asking for a giant blinking Vegas-esque sign to fall out of the sky telling me what to do and where to go next but knowing it'll probably be more like a whisper in the middle of the night as I'm falling asleep.
Kari thanks for sharing this. As far as recontacting, every year I've felt the same. It's such a hard decision.
ReplyDeleteAlso, you have a great way with words. Quite often I read your posts and say that's a really good way to explain that feeling that I've been feeling too. :)