Incomplete Thought

So I finally went back and reread my last post. It was an incomplete thought. I also wrote it over the span of 3 hours and took a bike ride in the middle of writing...that could explain things.

I am in a different season of life (duh). I'm done getting edumacated (for now) and I finally have a salaried job...a job that's totally different than what I studied. That's a big change in and of itself. Now put me in another country. It would've been okay had I lived somewhere like LA...or even just a city...or a suburb...or with people. But alas, I am in a foreign country in the middle of nowhere. That's a BIG change. And I wish this foreign country was like England where they just speak funny English. But I'm teaching English because no one speaks English. That's a HUGE change. I went from LA summer to Hokkaido winter via a 10-hour plane ride and 5+ hour train ride.

The change of seasons is exciting. I know that deep down this is where my heart has longed to be. My heart's desire was to be in Japan. I don't know about middle-of-nowhere, freezing-your-pants-off Japan, but I am in Japan and that alone has made my heart giddy. I get to explore the idea of a career change and get me feet wet in the teaching field--that is exciting.

But I am also glad that this is only a season. That this will eventually end and another season will come. I am thankful that the time alone is only for a season. I thank God for the season I was blessed with during college when I was physically surrounded by Christian fellowship. I thank God now for this season I have to enjoy Him and to learn how to trust and rely on Him for everything.

Being alone has made me crave fellowship. I crave Christian fellowship more than an enchilada-style sweet pork barbacoa burrito from Cafe Rio. I crave it. My soul longs to be in fellowship with other believers. I have a church here but the language barrier makes deep fellowship difficult. I have Skype dates but the time difference makes connecting somewhat difficult. I cried to God. I cried in frustration and just feeling alone and isolated. I cried and He heard me. I have a Skype Bible Study every Wednesday night with other Christians on my island. While we can't see each other and may never meet face-to-face, we have a weekly meeting to just get into the Word of God with each other and to fellowship together. This is a new season of fellowship.

My God doesn't go back on His promises. He promised to provide...and He did. He provided me with internet connection. He provided me with a computer. He provided me with Christians on this crazy gigantic island who desire to know Him more and more. He provided me with people back home who are dedicated to waking up early and setting aside time to check in. He provided more than I asked. He provided exactly what my heart needed.

In this season I will give thanks to my God, my Provider, for never leaving, never changing, and always loving.

You are good and Your love endures forever.